Twitterpated - Our Story

My mindset when I met Jamie was anything but acceptance. At that time, all women were fe-demons. Nothing good could come out of becoming close to one.

The first time we met was in a Sunday School class through a mutual friend, Denise. Jamie pulled an empty chair out for me to sit in and comforted me by letting me know she wouldn't bite. I quickly replied that wasn't what I was told by Denise, and Jamie quickly snapped her head around and asked Denise what she had told me.

I just sat there and chuckled at the whole event.

We ended up getting to know each other, but from a distance. Living two hours away and only being in town once a month limited our direct interaction. Which turned out to be a blessing in disguse.

A year later, and after both of us drew lines in the sand for the other to see, I started having some doubts about my 'friends only' routine. I would get excited to see her, and would get disappointed when she would back out of the plans we had made at the last moment.

Remember the Bugs and Daffy cartoon where they dig into a cave and find a treasure? Daffy comes out of the hole, sees the treasure and then jumps up and down on Bugs to keep him inside the hole? That was me. I kept jumping up and down on my emotions when I saw Jamie. Wouldn't let them manifest in any way.

I couldn't for my sake or for hers.

I needed to protect myself and I needed to protect her. I came to understand the biblical phrase "Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires."

Dating was not an option. To me, dating is selfish. Why should I dress up, smell good and buy you a nice dinner so you can make me feel important or desired for a short amount of time. It has become a social trap that entangles people and their emotions.

I wouldn't make my desires know unless I was intending on heading into a committed relationship in which the goal was marriage. So I just prayed, kept my emotions quiet and continued on my way.

One Christmas I actually got the nerve to talk to her about us and just before I got the opportunity Jamie informed me she was moving to California.

I just thought 'Ok God, must have missed the signs on that one.'

Several months later, after she didn't move to California, I felt like I needed to talk to her about us again.

This time she told me she was going back to school... possibly in Ohio.

Dagnabit! Missed the bloomin' sign again!

Finally, my friend Kris came out to visit and we had a tenative dinner date with Jamie so they could meet. But of course, Jamie bailed out on the plans at the last minute.

It bothered me when she did this to me, but it pushed me over the edge when it happened with a friend involved. Especially one who was in town from out of state.

Let's just say I was a wee bit perturbed with her.

So much so I wrote her off and didn't communicate with her for about three weeks.

Then I realized I couldn't do that. So I sent her an email asking her how things were going. But I also told myself if she responded, I wasn't playing around any longer and would confront myself and her with the feelings I had bottled up for so long.

We had lunch later that week and this website was one of the results.

"Jamie, when you stop looking, you will find it" ~ Dad

When I think about how our relationship started and grew into loving relationship it is today, I can only sit back and smile. I have always read about the man and woman who were dead set against loving each other…and then watched everything change.

Larry and I put that story line to the test.

When I met Larry I had already decided a life in the convent was right up my alley. All I needed was my trusty husky Jenny and my sea-doo. Who could ask for more?

Larry and I became fast friends, from the beginning there was something different about our relationship, something I could not pin point.

Maybe I just didn't want to pin point it.

Larry scared me. He was slowly entering into a place that no one was allowed. Every time he would get too close to my heart I would push him away.I became infamous for backing out of our plans, especially going to his house to help remodel.

I mean heaven forbid someone guess that I might have feelings for this man.

So when Kris, Larry's friend from Las Vegas, came up to visit, it truly was the straw that broke the camel's back.

He said he was going to bring Kris down to Lewiston to see his mother, so I offered to make dinner for them after their visit.

When it came down to it, they were actually coming down to see me and that sent me over the edge.

I told Larry that it wasn't a good idea for them to come down. And that was that.

But little did I know that sent Larry over the edge.

I didn't hear from him for almost a month.

I remember talking to my Mom and asking her "why can't we just be friends?".

It was during this time that I realized that I couldn't run from my feelings or him anymore. So after Thanksgiving we had lunch and I opened up and told him how I felt and the reasons I kept pushing him away.

Larry and I have something that is rare these days. We were friends a long time before we were anything else.

Our relationship began in God and will continue in God. I am blessed with the man God has given to me and I am very thankful for the road we had to travel to get to where we are.